Hopefully things will take a turn for the better in the new year for you, pinalta.
If you are in a Union, get your rep into the meeting with you.
If not speak to Citizens Advice before you go in.

Look after yourself, pinalta. I really hope you are feeling better soon.

Hi pinalta.

An incredibly honest forum post about your personal situation that you've used to try to help other readers. That speaks volumes about you in my not very important view.

I'm so glad to read that you've reached out for medical help while times are tough for you. That's so important and so many people don't.

I hope we can offer some support before January 3rd if you need it. I'm not sure how that works in an online forum like this. But if it works for you then I know there's plenty of people reading this that would want to stand behind you...

You have my thoughts and good wishes Pinalta.

Tony

so hope things get better for you. love n hugs x

Hope you get well soon Pinalta and good luck with your work.

Hope everything goes well for you and that you get better quickly xx

Thank you all for your support . Really worried about my job , as my behaviour has been very erratic .

Unable to see a doctor until next month , to assess my state of mind properly , getting more and more withdrawn and losing interest in all things .

I can see for myself at the very least, I am very depressed and anxious, I would not have put myself in a position in which I could lose my house due to not having a job , when my house is the very thing which I have been fighting for . the last year has been the worst. I am sorry for the way I have treated my work mates , I became very suspicious of them , guess due to the pressure on me . I felt that they were having a good laugh behind my back , which turns out is wrong .

Will keep you posted after I have seen my manager tomorrow afternoon , I really do think , things will not go well for me , however I have to face my demons .[:(]

hi pinalta

I hope that your meeting goes well today with your boss.

Any form of mental illness be it depression, stress or anxiety is horrendous.

I do hope your employer is sympathetic to your issues and wish you well.

Well meting over , not got a job any more . Thank you to my Trustee , for a great start to 2014 , hope things get better for others , using this forum .

Throw me to the wolfs and I will return leading the pack .

You know who the wolf's are coming for , justice will be done , the person in the street will rise up . All the best for 2014 , until valahala !!.[?]

Hello Pinalta

I do not know your whole situation however I felt desperation and sadness and frustration in the brief information I read.

I cannot offer you professional advice, Pinalta and I am sure you will receive excellent support and advice on here.

I only hope that the new year will bring you new energy and a new emotional approach to the situation and allow you to find a solution to your problems. Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom before we can climb up again (not that I wish that on anyone).

I was once counselled to think "what is your worst fear today?"
Then, "Can you do anything about it". If so, do it. If not, let it go and find another path. Also "how will you cope with it if it happens". That helped me tremendously.

I was also told I always have choices. I may not think the choices are good or fair, or desirable, but I have choices - and those choices change as my journey progresses.

I wish you a year in which you find a way out of your current situation.

Best wishes,

I'm sorry to hear about your job pinalta.

I hope that your appointment later this week brings some help and relief. You've done the right thing reaching out for medical help; so many people do not.

Thank you for your support , going through such a self destructive process is indeed a journey . However I feel such shame as to how much out of control I was , it seemed like nirvana to not give a fcuk , to anyone or anything as I thought I had no choices or future . Very upset my work did not give help or support , as I had been there 6 year's and always showed my commitment and ability to protect the welfare of the residents .Guess , they have to protect others , which is fair enough .
How ever I did not lie , and admitted my wrong doing . Loyality and honesty seem to have no place with the work ethics of such a company , nor years of dedicated service unto others . So I lost control , any harm done to my fellow work mates was never meant , just felt you added to my misery , due to my loss of control .

Hi pinalta

So sorry to hear about your job.

Is there no way that you can appeal your dismissal? It is normally three strikes and you are out unless it is gross misconduct?

Also your GP may be able to help with a letter explaining the stress you have been under?