Thank you for the reply. I can assure you I will never ever reach the depths of what has happened. The trust deed will ensure I never ever do this again. as stated I have told my partner everything. And to say he is understanding is an understatement! He was brilliant and with his love I can achieve anything. Tried to chase what I had lost. It took so so much to say it out loud. I was so close to ending it and I believe the trust deed will be the start of a new life. X

Good on you and on your partner. It sounds like you are determined to start a new chapter and it will surely be so much easier with such an understanding and loving partner.

Kevin you have no idea how low I feel at the moment. But I am determined to put it all right. Although my family don't know I am determined to make things right for them. I want to give my children a good life and I don't just mean momentary wise I mean my mental health! And if I can gain control of finances. And in turn it will allow me to take control of my life which has been totally out of control for the last few years. Time to sort it out x